Monday, April 30, 2007

Last night, I got into reading my past entries in my old blog and boy, my life before was definitely something. I sort of miss that old self. Reading those entries inspires me to start taking blogging 'seriously" again. And better yet, to start writing seriously. I've also noticed that I have been saying this over and over--beginning in my blog entries from 2003 to when I closed that blog in 2006! Grabe! It just means that when it comes to my writing life, I really did not accomplish that much at all...

But it's alright. I am really going to make it work this time. More than teaching, the whole world knows that what I want to do with my life is to write, write, write. Just talking about it and not actually doing it has gotten so predictable, so boring. I know. So, I've decided that I'm just going to do it. You'll see. :)

An old entry

Thursday, May 06, 2004

Sentimental Thursday

I love you in the simplest meaning of these words. To define it and to attempt describing it are beyond me. I have tried doing so before, with the many faces and names that I have once promised to keep for a lifetime. But here I am, connected to this invisible but real thread of loving: we can either choose to cut it, or just weave it intricately till our hands get tired and we just choose to hold each other's and rest.

I do not want you any other way. I want the same cologne on your collar, the muscles that twitch at my slightest touch, the mouth that curls up into a smile when I kiss your neck, the same mouth that frowns and bites and kisses and eats...

I have chosen you, among those names covered with the Past;among the names to come.

I will never own you nor you will me. My love will keep my center, like gravity, it pulls me on the ground...

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Moving on

I ought to write a substantial update but as always, I'll put that off.

Fourth week of summer break and I'm not so thrilled about it. For one, the heat is really killing me. I can't wait to finally hit the beach next week. Then, there's the pile of work waiting for me to do, which I just can't start doing because of, again, the heat.

Mama left for Canada last Saturday and that sad, sad feeling that used to break my young heart whenever she was away came back, this time, cutting deeper. I miss her already. Then again, I'm really happy that she's starting anew and that's what really matters. I just feel lonely at the thought that I can't see her anytime I want to. Having coffee with Mama, smoking with her, shopping, talking about stuff--well,hmmm. I'll have to wait for a couple of years before we can get to those things again.

I intend to visit my brother and the rest of the family more frequently. I miss them, too.


P and I have been staying at home these days, with the occasional trips to the mall and to our families' houses. We've been having afternoon walks at the Ateneo, too. I need to lose all this flab really soon! Ang taba-taba ko na. Thing is, it's only my tummy that gets all the inches.

My summer's going quietly. Kung hindi lang sana sobra ang init, ok na talaga. I'm glad though that P's always with me. One of these days, we'll make our own homevideo entitled "Happy Together" haha. Thank God we are.


Summer Reading


1. Black Swan Green by David Mitchell
2. Enduring Love by Ian McEwan
3. Teacher Man by Frank McCourt
4. On Beauty by Zadie Smith
5. The Chocolate War by Robert Cormier

Next in line:

1. Art of Modern Education by Rudolf Steiner
2. In the Country of Last Things by Paul Auster
3. Brothers Karamasov by F. Dostoevsky (re-reading)
4. Wickett's Remedy by Myla Goldberg

Flipping through the pages, alternatingly:

1. Bagets ed. by Eugene Evasco and Carla Pacis
2. Negotiating with the Dead by Margaret Atwood
3. Teaching Reading in Middle School the author escapes me
4. Best Words, Best Order by Stephen Dobyns


I'm still searching for that "life-changing" book for summer. It's been a while since I've encountered such book. From The Teeth of Angels pa yata ni Jonathan Carroll yun...

Ian McEwan has that effect on me but he makes me impatient. David Mitchell started to be promising but it still wasn't it. Kung may nagbabasa pa nito, any suggestions? :)